Author: mysorean

This final part of a four-part series reflects on the my journey towards atheism, emphasizing the personal transformations during the 2020 lockdown. Initially feeling isolated, I confronted thoughts and realizations about relationships, spirituality, and India’s caste system. I scrutinized longstanding beliefs and sought meaning amidst rituals that no longer resonated. The silence allowed for introspection and a reevaluation of my life’s experiences, from professional insights at the Azim Premji Foundation to personal encounters with systemic inequality. Ultimately, atheism emerged not as a rejection of belief, but as a state of being – an embrace of humanity, kindness, and a reflection on personal growth.

I reflect further on my journey with Isha Yoga and Sadhguru, detailing how the practices initially transformed my life, enhancing flexibility and spiritual awareness. However, over time, I became disillusioned with Sadhguru’s political alignments and controversial statements, leading to a poignant questioning of my beliefs and the nature of spiritual guidance.

I continue from my previous post here reflecting on my first hostel experience, characterized by discomfort and a makeshift lifestyle. I discuss spiritual beliefs, shifting from organized religion to personal spirituality, while navigating social and cultural identities. Amidst academic challenges and friendships, I explore food preferences and personal philosophies, ultimately finding connections in shared experiences.

I reflect on my upbringing in a religiously liberal Telugu family, detailing the balance between tradition and modernity in festival celebrations. I describe elaborate rituals, food preparation, and daily prayers, emphasizing the cultural significance of religion. The narrative highlights how these practices influenced my early identity until leaving for college at eighteen.